08.16.17 – Vocal-ed
Finger to chin for luck; middle turned out and twirled away like there’s no thanks given. No one’s dropped a palm to remind the solemn few it was meant for goodness. There’s stares burning through cement to prick the necks of the next passenger for such a harsh slight. But there’s the nature of eavesdropping, context is crossed and we’ve only the benefit of limited experience with subject, subject and subject. Maybe it’d help to hold a dictionary and thesaurus and point to a more precise movement through the lecture. The length might grow, though the individual would lessen to leave only an ambiguous thought bereft of the flair and flourish one might give. I left my thumb up, hand still caught at that base of oration in hopes part of me might be found there. I was still a slow moving linguist gathering sand one grain at a time to make a castle not just quaint for on-lookers. The other conversationalists were debating with words and silence like those were better weapons than guns and knives. Damage wasn’t pain inflicted but instead pulling your antithetical partner over to your world of spin and din or the waving witchcraft of expression and silence. People didn’t shift violently with a yell or start, but slowly, a piecemeal phrase or tip towards emotion without full discernment that change was washing over. Fidgeting increased and the bystanders read more lips than they knew possible, unfolding and deciphering their own crisp knowledge with a newfound joy and interest. Those eyes stayed focused elsewhere, afraid that staring might tip off the speakers or alter the course of their blooming knowledge. The content was muddled, masked behind unknown names and an untold history and yet there was still a narrative compelling enough to lead a group gathered from chance, rather than collaboration, to hold fast. At its end there would be no way to sort what was collected, just the gesture of the thing or the fullness of that argument, in feeling and frustration. No winners are found, but silence would always be the close.